How great is my God!

Early Monday morning.i found out a guy i knew that had WLS had passed (death was non related to surgery) he had some problems..been sick and other issues! Then The last two nights...I've dreamed bout the surgery...weird dreams..not bad just weird...so it's been on my mind ..... I Been feeling really strong about it..but this afternoon my own brain started turn g against me and I started feeling anxious and scared about it!! I started doubting my decision to go through with the VSG (Vertical Sleeve Gastrictomey)! I started worrying about death, illness, emotional and physical issues I'm likely to run in too and then lastly what others thought!! Oddly enough..(I guess cause originally I wasn't gonna tell any body..but it's tuned into a lot of peeps)...for the first time I started worrying about others opinions on it...what r people saying, thinking, feeling.when I tell them I am having is surgery? No one I have told has been ugly or weird about it...but I know so many think negatively ....like it's the easy way out (which it's not..if you have doubts just research it)! Lastly..I don't even care..what others think..but it's on my mind!! All the way home from Martin..I prayed about it...after I got home I googled VSG..for the 10,0000 time...and for the first time..I found this forum called vertical sleeve talk...you have to pay to be a member...but u can see some questions and answers for free...people ask questions and others post advice..it was very helpful...and awesome to read that most feeling the exact same way that I do...having all these crazy thoughts running through their head...so even though I felt like these thoughts were normal it was nice to read that others we're concerned about the emotional changes and stress they were ether afraid of or had already lived through!! After all that refreshing reading...I log into Facebook and received a very loving, sweet message from a dear cousin..telling me he will support any decision I make!! It made me cry!!! Then I realized how awesome is my God!!! He is always giving me what I need..when I need it!! So tonight as I lay my head on my pillow..I will be thanking and praising my amazing..loving ..God!! I am unworthy of his goodness!!!