they lied...I am HUUNNGRY!!

What in the world!!! That was supposed to be the number one most awesome thing about this surgery was ..the no hunger...but they lied because I am hungry!!! I came out of surgery...starvin...I kept asking all the nurses and such about..it cause it just doesn't seem right..but....no one really had an answer!! I guess when I start eating more protein..the hunger will be so much better..but for now..i will deal with it!! Yesterday I started purees!!!
 I ate my very first scrammbled..scrammbled eggs!!!

Yummy

Delish...i can only handle about 3 or 4 ounces of purees or fluid at a time!!

I can also have Jello...any flavor...as long as it's sugar free!!!

I even had cream of wheat today!!!

                                                            plus..lots and lots of WATER!!  

I am still having some protein shakes...and some applesuace to get my meds down!!  But Im still HUNNGRY!!  Im sure once I start eating "real" solid food   I wont be so hungry!!!  daily im getting stronger and have less pain!!  So things are looking better!!!  I also had some visitors today and so I feel very, very blessed!!  I had some special visitors today too...made me feel so much better!!

My sweet guests came straight up with homemade gifts and everything!!!  

It's been a very good day!!  

i'm sleeved.....found it!

Well...Im finally on the losers bench!  Seems crazy that the surgery protion of this progress is finally over!!  I feel good...very blessed...all the prayers and sweet thoughts and words were and are so appreciated!!  I honestly was so calm on thursday..had a few jitters but everyone was so good and nice and My God was with me the whole time!! 
My surgery lasted about two hours...Last thing I remember was them telling me...they were going to give me something to make me sleep and to take deep breaths...then..i was in recovery!  I was actually in recovery for about 4 hours.  Which is a sore subject for my husband and my brother, they were ready to take someone out!  They had to wait to get me a room and then they were just waiting for someone to put a bed in my room...needless to say..i was sooo HAPPY to be out of Recovery and with my Family again!! 
That first night was rough..I got sick and nausous every single time they gave me pain meds.. which is never fun for anyone..but after having surgery on your tummy is really, really, really not fun!  We even changed pain meds...which made it better but I still got nausous! Friday I still had a lot of pain...but I did lots of walking...and finally was discharged to come home around 4ish!  That ride home was very long!!  We stopped twice so that I could walk around and potty!  I was so ready to get home!! 
Even though I feel better today....Overall the pain has been worse than I anticipated!!  I was expecting to feel crappy and hurt because of gas..and I've had more gas pain..today ...but the pain on my right side has been crazy killer!! The right side is where they took out my stomach so I feel pretty confident that's why it's more painful! Its very tender,sore and painful!  I still have to get help to get up and down out of the recliner but I can use the finally use potty by myself since Adam got me a potty chair that stands pretty tall..so I don't have to lower myself down so much!! Funny..i know..but I'm very thankful for that chair!!  Tam and Ed both took turns helping me to walk outside and down the driveway and it felt amazing to be outside!
I know that each day..im gonna get better and stronger!  Im still on a liquid diet and I have to get 64 oz in each day...which was no problem before but when you can only take 1 to 3 oz every 15 mins or so...it makes for a long day!! 
I don't mean to complain!!  I know that through Christ all things are possible and this is just the first tiny step to help my body heal and help me get on my way..to be healthier!!  I go back to my first post op visit thursday...I just pray that I continue to heal well and get all my liquids in!  Thanks for all the prayers..i feel them daily!

im sleeved

I just typed out a whole new blog..updating every one and give you my play by play on the hospital experience..and I lost it! UGH..Im honestly not up to rewriting it tonight!! But I wanted to say..thank you so much for all the prayers and texts...and phone calls..and the sweet encouraging words from my family and friends..have meant so much!! I still have pain..but nothing like yesterday!! I need help getting up and down from chair..but hopefully that will change! Praising God because I know his mercys are new every morning!!

this is it!!

Well..the time is here!!  I Can’t believe it!!  I have so many emotions running through my head…happy, sad, scared..hopeful!!  Honestly..i feel pretty good..i have a little anxiety but nothing like I thought I was going to have!!  All the prayers are differently being felt because to be honest..i thought I was going to end up being a total basket case today!  Of course I might be one tomorrow..but I honestly think it’s going to be ok.  I prayed again this morning that no matter what happens that God will get the Glory out of it!!  Through his strength ..I have been able to make this choice..and take these steps..which I honestly did not think I had in me!  I know that tomorrow..he will be with me…comforting me like only he can!  I am very thankful for that!!  I don’t know how so many people in this world…face life without the reassurance from him!  Life is so uncertain…so everchanging…so hard…scary…and ugly sometimes!!  Through the heavenly father we can have peace..and the promise of eternal certainty!...if you don't have this kind of peace...you need it!!  Call me i'm gonna have a little time on my hands the next 2 weeks!!  love to all!! thanks for the prayers!

it's here

I have written 1 million other posts in my head to fill you guys in on how im feeling and what im thinking but I've just been to busy to make a postS!! Well..this is it..Thursday April 26th is my day!! The last 2 months has just flown by and I can hardly believe that this surgery is now coming into a reality!! Thanks to the good Lord above I have still only had a few days of real anxiety!! Im sure the day of the surgery I will be a real basket case but I just pray that God sees fit to continue allowing me to feel so good and confident about the whole thing!! I also think that distraction to NYC was just what I needed to get me my mind somewhere else for a few days!! BTW..that trip was AMAZING and a real dream come true!! I just feel so blessed to be giving this life changing opportunity and I hope that a week from now..when I am struggling with it all I can look back at this post and just try and remember how good...safe..happy and blessed I felt about the whole thing.
I had to do my preop visit earlier than originally scheduled but everything went well...my ekg looked good and Doc said that he could feel my ribs which was a great indicator of the surgery being done laproscopicly! So Fingers crossed***
While at pre op they told me I was going to have to do a longer pre op diet than just the one day before surgery!! Thankfully it's more than clear liquids until the day before but As I type this I have a headache and I am pretty hungry! I am on day 2 of my pre op diet and today I have not been in the best mood ~~ im also hungry..really hungry..but by this time next week..i probably want have much hunger!! Hoping this week just passes quickly and that I get to spend good quality time with those I love the most!!
Pray requests are: My health, smooth surgery, God will continue to give me peace, surgeon will have a steady hand, and that they will be able to do surgery laproscopically, with minimal pain, my recovery time will be quick and that God will give my husband and family peace and strength. Please also pray that God will continue to get the glory through this no matter what happens!!
Love to all..thanks for the prayers!