a brand new start again

Ha...ha..ha..ha..ha..ha..ha..ha..ha...
How many new starts have I had with this blog? I don't even know...too many to count i'm sure..but here we go once again...2010..was not my year at all..but 2011 with God's guidance and loving hand will be the year...how could it not be right?? We are going to Hawaii in Febuary?? So blessed we are that sometimes when little problems come along we can't even see how awesome how God is for feeling sorry for ourselves! I know that God is on my side and that he and he alone can get us through whatever is taking place in our lives (inside and out)! I know see that 2010 was a year that was supposed to help me grow spiritually but I didn't do that because I spent most of it feeling sorry for myself....so I have a lot of ground to make up for all the time I wasted last year! So lets see what we can expect to happen in 2011...Spirtual growth (yes), Weightloss (hopefully), pregnancy (maybe), Happiness (always), less spending (no choice)!
So Watch out 2011 here I come!

Blessings

Look at these Precious Faces! How Lucky am I! God has been so good to me! He has blessed me with the wonderful gift of getting to LOVE each one these children! My prayer for each of them is that God will continue to keep them all wrapped in his arms of love to keep them safe and always out of harms way! That he would continue to bless each of them in mind, body and spirit so that they will continue to make good choices and grow into beautiful Christian men and women! That they will always serve God and tell of his love! Preaching and teaching others about how Good God has been to them and then leading those people to Christ!

Our God is an Awesome God! Just look at these faces and see the wonderful works his hand has made!

I love each of you so much! I hope that know matter where you go and what you do you will always feel God's love! I also hope that you each know how important you are to me! I love you!

I can't help it!

I really can't help it...all I do it cry! If you know me very well at all I know what your thinking "oh big surprise, Sarah's crying!" I know I am over emotional but this is different! I have a serious problem ~ all I do is cry ~ I d0n't want to do anything or go anywhere...I don't want to work or even get out of bed...I'm constantly exhausted and sad...so seriously what's the diagnosis? Depression?...Maybe! Crazy?...Very possible! Helpless?...not really but sometimes I feel sorry for myself! Unloved?...NEVER! I mean even the mist of all this drama...I have a heavenly father that loves me unconditionally...even when I am depressed, crazy, and helpless! He is always there! Lovingly waiting for me to come to him with every worry, problem and tear! So why is that so hard?.....I don't know! I just want to understand why? I know all things are in his time and not mine...but its so hard to see at this very moment....why, when, and if it really will happen! So I've decided that once again I need to refocus my priorities and start over! Thank you for the blessings!

Mama Deanie ~ inspired by my dad!

So I miss my Mama Deanie! I miss her laugh, her smile, her warmness, her ability to always make me feel so special! I miss her wisdom and her love! I miss her often anyways but this time of year it's always worse! Because her birthday was last Wednesday Sept 29th and she would have been 89 and because 4 year ago on Oct 9th she left his earth! I feel that this year for some reason it's so much worse ~ Maybe because Briana just lost her grandad and so going through all of that with them has reminded me all over again of what we lost 4 years ago! Maybe it's because I aspire to be a mother so badly and she was such a WONDERFUL Mother to 10 kids of her own. Maybe it's because now I wish more than ever I could have asked her so many questions about "our family" or "how things were." Maybe I just want to hear her say one more time, "your cheeks sure are rosey" or "my hair used to be beautiful like yours" or "that baby sure is smart." Maybe I just long to hear one of her clever or crazy stories about our family! Maybe I am just sad because I no longer have grandparents. If she were alive she would be so tickled and thrilled about Ed! She would have loved him so much and I know that she would have found some way that we were related (she was always doing that with boys that I had a crush on.)
Mama Deanie was such a strong women ~ 10 kids, 26 grand kids, 30 great grand kids, 3 great, great grand kids! Wow how amazing to leave behind such a history and legacy! I by no means have intentions of having a family that large but how wonderful would it be to have that kind of impact on the world! I wander If she ever imagined that her and Papa Dick would have such a large family? ~ I wonder how that feels? See I would love to ask her that!

The RESULTS are in....

WE ARE NOT PREGNANT ! We're you expecting this? I was...i bet you thought from the title that this entire blog was gonna be about how much weight I've lost but SURPRISE..it's all about the fact that we are NOT PREGNANT! I just had no idea how awful it would be to NOT BE PREGNANT! I always felt bad for those around me who had a hard time but WOW...the pain, depression, and sleepless nights those sweet souls have faced is unbelievable! My sweet loving, giving, kind husband just doesn't understand..well..I guess no body does unless they have been there, right? I can promise you one thing..I will never say these words, "just don't think about it and it will happen," "it will happen for you guys~it's just not your time." These statements may be true they sure don't really make anybody feel better so from now own..if you come to me with your fertility problems..I'm just gonna listen..if you want a hug....you got it, if you wanna cry...i promise I will probably cry with you (lucky for you I'm an overemotional person)! The whole thing is so weird...I almost feel like we are being punished for doing everything "the right way" because I'm not getting any older and guess what I'm still NOT PREGNANT!
I know that things could be worse...and I also know how blessed Ed and I both are!
We have a heavenly father who loves us! We have such good, special families and good and special friends! We have good jobs, a house to live in and cars to drive! I get to LOVE on Cash and Cami daily! I mean we are REALLY BLESSED! Now if we could just add a kid to that mix it would be even better...lol!
So my one request of my precious blog readers would be that you pray for me and Ed. That God with bless us with a sweet baby, give us the strength to get up each day and face a world that we are NOT PREGNANT in! Please say a special pray for my dear husband who has to put up with me being an overemotional, crazy, NON-PREGNANT, woman daily! God certainly knew what he was doing when he gave Ed to me!

New crazy obession

So I have this strange new obsession...I am obsessed with FAT PEOPLE...are you surprised? All weekend (well when I have had time) I have been sitting down to the computer to search out Fatty's that blog about their life! My absolute fav to read or look at is about Fatty Preggos! I wanna read their blogs, hear their stories, see what they wore, what they looked like..i wanna know where they got their clothes, how smoothly or unsmoothly their deliveries went...serisously...I'm OBSESSED!! I can't help it! Anyways..just wanted to share...

5 things I'm thankful for...

1. hanging out with Cash today
2. Getting to worship the lord
3. that i will get to see Faith tomorrow...
4. Best husband ever (he's cleaning my car as i type)
5. My mom's dressing..it's my fav!

today's 5

Today's 5 should not be a struggle ~~ I have a good Savior, family, husband, friends..place to live, place to sleep, a job, and some money saved up ~~ clothes on my back and food on my table...but I am still struggling with contentment! I find myself being jealous and even angry at those women who are pregnant, just had a baby, or just have lots of kids! It's so hard having the job I have where so many of my families don't really care about their kids ~ some of them are not only living with parents who don't pay attention to them...they live in homes that are dirty, nasty, filthy, bug infested crap holes! Over the last few months I find myself going into these homes ...and just crying off and on throughout my visits...I just keep thinking how unfair that some of these parents who don't care get to have lots of children while we sit back and struggle trying to get pregnant! I've been doing better...about not crying as much and I have been praying and praising GOD through this storm trying to realize that it is all in his time not mine ~~ but since Sunday..I find myself falling right back into my pit of despair! Struggling to lose weight, finding compassion for others and seeing those that I am jealous of or that make me angry at with Christ like eyes keeps becoming harder and harder for me to do! I WANT TO US to HAVE A BABY SO BAD>> I COULD JUST SCREAM! If I was 5 years younger I don't think this need would be so bad...because the only thing worse than being FAT and PREGNANT is being OLD, FAT and PREGNANT! I will be 31 in Novemeber and I never thought I would be this old with no children...it's funny how we work out a plan in our heads as kids but then when things don't go the way we planned from when we were 10 years old...you still are shocked and hurt! I know I need an attitude adjustment...I know how many things that I really have to be thankful for...God has blessed us with so much already and I keep reminding myself that those answers prayers to those that are true and faithful to his word. Then I start feeling guilty for doubting..see..it's all a big devilish circle I have got myself trapped in..ugh!
So today I realize that I need to write down 5 things I am thankful for because I need refocus and start putting all my negative thoughts aside!
Today I am thankful for:
1. A God that loves me
2. A doctor's office that doesn't make me feel bad because I am overweight
3. Getting to make sweet Cami laugh about 4 times! (Most precious sound ever)
4. Only having one kid to see today for work
5. A Sweet husband who loves me unconditionally!

In honor of Cash...

In honor of Cash's birthday party tonight..I am dedicating this blog to him! My 5 favorite things about Cash....

1. The crazy "movie" or "random toy" phases that he always go through! Ex: Wizard of OZ, Harry Potter, Volcanos!

2. That he will still gives me kisses...sometimes...usually have to beg..or he will pass them out freely when he wants something!

3. His adorable smile and his big blue eyes!

4. The way he innocently asks so many questions!

5. That he has a stubborn, I know what I want, not giving up till I get it attitude...because one day this will help him be an awesome christian!

In honor of Owen...

In honor of Owen's birthday party tonight I decided to shake things up and just write my 5 favorite things about Owen!

My 5 Fav things about Sweet Baby O are:

1. His sweet crazy Vampire teeth smile

2. How he can even make tons of slobber and drool look adorable (see pic above)

3. His love for off key singing

4. That he is CRAZY bout his mama (that's the way it shoud be)

5. His beautiful, friendly, loving life, easy going personality that GOD gave him!

I am thankful for:

1. Steel cut oats..they are delicious, nutty, and full of fiber

2. The lady who walks for miles every morning in a different direction to pick up trash along the road.

3. My job..because I realize no matter how frustrated I get I am the only attention or play some of those children get all week!

4. That I got to play and love on Candy's kids today..that does't happen often and everyone was in a really good mood.

5. The Rain!

Today's five

Things I am thankful for:

1. That the cleaning lady was able to remove the orange stain in our bathtub!
2. For the awesome pain pills that take away some of my hubby's pain.
3. I weighed 3 lbs less today than I did on Sunday
4. That Owen is having a Vintage 1st birthday party
5. Yellow box flip flops ..they are AMAZING!

My 5

Today I am thankful for:

1. This morning when I woke up I didn't have to brush my hair! I am not saying it looks good, Just saying that I didn't "have" to brush it because it's in a crazy bun!

2. That I was able to balance out the healthy egg whites I ate for breakfast with a delicous carb called a WAFFLE!

3.That I got to wake up next to my precious Cash this morning.

4. That my hubby's wisdom tooth hole is NOT infected!

5. That only having a few kids at work to see means that I get to take an actual lunch lunch!

5 Things I am thankful for today

I was just inspired by the one of the emails that I received from the biggest loser! It talked about how everyone should write down 5 things each day they are thankful for ~ It also talked about how hard it was to do this but usually after people have done this for a while it's very rewarding! As I read it I thought, "that's ridiculous it's not hard to find things to be thankful for." But now that I am faced with the chance to start writing them down I realize the reason its so hard is because It will be hard for me to stop at just 5! So here is my list of things that I am thankful for today!

Today I am thankful for:

1. Prayer ~ that as Christians we have this awesome opportunity to share with God what's on our hearts and minds. I am also thankful for prayer because it's so precious! Even the smallest of children learn at an early age how important it is to pray! If it's been a while since you listened to a child's pray ~~ you are missing out ~~ it is so humbling!

2. That I am Ms. Robison...I'm sorry I mean Ms. Harrison Robison (faith does that sound better?)

3. That earlier today with God's help I was able to think of some positive things to say about someone that I often only have negative thoughts and feelings towards.

4. That My sweet Cash is 5 today. He has been such an amazing blessing to my life! I thank God for the privilege to be apart of his life! I always thought that he and Briana needed me but it turns out that I have always needed them!

5. Lastly, I am thankful that there are just 4 more days to Friday! Whoot ~ Whoot ~~it's birthday party central all weekend long!

God is so Good!

Judgemental, moody, mean, ungiving, uncompassionate, unmotivated, tired, not Christ like, negative, and unprayful...really the list could go on and on about how I have been feeling lately! It's so hard to say that you believe in God and are a Christian and go through all the motions but have no heart behind it! I find myself in the pit....my pray life is almost non existent and feel like my life is in a whirl wind! I am so ashamed to be right back where I started with no self growth or life changes even after I started this blog to help keep me accountable. I am so ashamed that even after I went against everything that I grow up believing in and hurting so many people who love and trusted me when I was baptized, that I find myself in this terrible place now! Something has got to give. I made that decision almost 6 years ago to step out on Faith, Trusting in God Completely ~ Believing in Christ ~ I was baptized for the remission of my sins!

God is so good because the bible tells us that, "he gave us his only begotten son, so that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16. The cross should be a reminder of ALL that God sacrificed for us..for me ~~ no matter how unworthy! That alone should be enough to make me want to change this very moment ~ so why is it so hard!

I wish I had an answer.

I don't..... but I do know that I need a change! I am ready to give my all to the cause of Christ not matter what! I think so many times before I have been scared about the path that God might lead me down or the things or people he might ask me to give up ~~ but starting now ~~ I am committing my entire life, my very being to the cause of Christ! I want the world to know how much I love the heavenly father ~ I want to share God's love and compassion with the world!

Dear Heavenly Father,

I humbly bow before you once again Thanking you for so many things ~ Jesus dying on the cross for my sins, my husband, my mom and dad, Adam and Tamara, Briana, Ray, Cash and Cami, Thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to be apart of their lives to be able to help them and allowing me the practice I need to help me be good mother one day. My life has been so blessed because I have been able to share it with Cash and Cami ~ Thank you for allowing me to know the love of a precious child. Thank you lord for Faith, Mike, Payton, Maddie, Emma and Owen, Catherine, Ed's Parent's, Briana's family (mom, dad, candy, scotty, karlie, cora, wylie, mandy, marc, avery and jace), thank you for my job, Ed's job, Rush, Brance, Tiffany, Emily (baby), W, Ben, Alethea and Baby, DeAnna and family, the people I work with, and my whole family as well as my church family.

Please forgive me for failing you daily, for not putting you first, for allowing earthly and material things to cloud my vision to you, Forgive me for lying, hurting others and for my uncompassionate, unchristlike ways. Please forgive me for asking for blessings from you when I was not putting you first.

Please bless all those that I mentioned that I am thankful for. Keep your loving, sheltering arms around them daily keeping them safe. Allow me to live my life in a way that might be a shining example to them and to others of your love and life. Help me lord not to be so judgemental of others and to see all people and situations with Christlike eyes. I pray that you will help Cash, Cami, Payton, Maddie, Emma and Owen to grow in your love ~~ keep them especially safe, healthy and out of harms way. Allow each of them to grow into wonderful loving Christian men and women that grow to worship, serve and love you.

Father Please bless Ed and I with children. We are so thankful for each other and we both desire for our family to grow with children. We especially pray for healthy, happy, loving children that we can raise in your love that one day they will grow up to love, serve and worship you with their whole heart.

I know that there are so many other things that I could continue for pray about, but I think for tonight I will leave it at this. I love you so much and I pray that you will share your blessings on all my friends and family.

In Jesus Name

DRUM ROLL PLEASE....

Well...it's been a week of hunger, crazy mad will power (only by the God's hand) and lots of chicken and fish! Ed says he hasn't been hungry at all this week..but he gets bigger portions than me plus he didn't eat much during the day anyways! Packing your lunch, snack and dinner almost everyday before you leave the house is no fun...especially when you have a job that is nothing but traveling....in the end it has all been worth it! I am so proud to annouce that Ed and I both lost weight this week...are you ready...Ed lost 8 lbs and I lost 9lbs! I am so happy that we both stuck it out and tried our best! We are totally on are way to being healthier people and it's nice not having to go through it alone for the first time. ( REalizing we are never alone with God on our side)! This coming week we are in Knoxville for a training and I am not very excited...they will be providing us breakfast and lunch and I am nervous about what those are going to be..hopefully...there will be plenty of options so that I can make a healthy choice! prayers needed!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow...my hubby and I start our new "change of life" it is the 6 weeks body makeover....So in 6 weeks watch out people..we are gonna be so skinny no one will recognize us! lol...Just kidding..but honestly...hopefully there will be a change! I have already gotten angry thinking about all the weight my husband is gonna lose..because you know when guys even kinda try to lose weight..they "drop it like it's hot!" So hopefullly there will be a lot more post that tell about all the weight we are dropping! I can't wait! P.S. Faith you will just have to learn to love a skinner me!

oompa loompa doobidedo...

WEll..guess what...yes I am so excited I can hardly wait to tell you that I am down yet one more lb..i am so excited..it's taking forever but I am very thankful for every single lb that has been lost....You sure cannot tell by looking at me but I haven't seen this low number on the scale in quite a while...I just could never get passed this one humb but thankfully..with God's loving mercy and GRACE ..i did! So maybe next week will be even better!

NOT to bad

Well...I'm still losing slowly but surely...and let me emphasis slowly ~~ more, better, and way more exciting post to come soon..i promise..i have just been super busy with Little Ms. Cami and My main man CASH! I just thought life was good before but it is honestly so much more perfect now that Cami is in it! Soon..i will be better at blogging...soon...very soon

Wishing and Hoping and Praying

Introducing my newest baby..Ms. Cami Rae! Just added this picture because it was sweet...but it has nothing to do with my blog!
So I discovered this correlation (spelling?) once before but when my relationship with God is lacking so is the one with my husband and food (yes i said food)! I just can't figure out why I cannot get my self together! Sure there has been a lot going on....Bri's in the hosptial and Cash is sick but it started before this! I just feel yucky. I haven't excercised this week at all but my eating hasn't been to bad. I just haven't been eating as many fruits and veges as my body has been used to ethier!
So Today I am WISHING I was heathier person
HOPING that I can get myself together
PRAYING that Cash continues to get better, Cami stays healthy and that Bri, baby and Cash all make a smooth transition home for the hospital!
As always I give God the Glory for everything in my life! Thank you God!

my Tum Tum Tummy hurts

SO I have to admit that yesterday evening was not a very good eating day for me..it started off good but after lunch sometime it just went down hill...and it happened so fast...really before I could even think about it..I was putting some crap in my mouth! I am not sure what happened really...maybe it was that I was so busy I just didn't think about it or maybe it was the exciment of that 1 lb weight loss..or it could be that Lisa (friend from work) Convinced me that I just HAD to go and try a doughnut from the new doughnut place in Paris! I was originally gonna just get 1 or 2 but decided to I got 6 so that I could share with others...dad, Aunt June, Bri and Cash! I ate 2 and then a bite of another ~~ and they WEREN'T even that GREAT and Let me just say..I am paying for it today..because my tum tum tummy hurts...it just doesn't feel right at all! So NO MORE doughnuts, or cheez its for me! I can do better than that...I am pretty sure I wasn't hungry or even really craving the crazy doughnuts when I ate them! UGH...why do we do such things!

Another one bites the dust

WEll that's right I weighed today and I am down one more pound! That's not much but I will take it ~ ~ I was mostly just proud to see that I had lost instead of gained!! So now I am one more lb closer to a better me...lol! Hopefully since I am planning on sticking to my
"life change" a little better this weekend ~~ I will be down even more lbs!
Ok..one last thing....Tired of eating grilled or baked chicken? Well...you could jazz up that left over chicken by adding green beans, mushrooms, and a little onion flakes into a skillet with the chicken! It is sooooooo YUMMY! Mom used to make this for me when I was trying to lose weight at home..it was always so good and delicous ~~~ very filling!

Just another manic run day!

Yeah..I said "run day" instead of "Monday!" But only because Manic Mondays have become my run days ~~~ that's my fun day....wooo...wooo....! Lol!
Seriously...did you feel the Earth move under your feet today at 11:00 ~~ if so It might have been from where I was running today. I am proud to say that I ran just a little farther than I did last Monday...but only because I had a terrible eating weekend. Maybe I will actually jazz up the rest of the walking for this week and turn it into running too! I do have my big weigh in on Thursday morning ~~ so I will really need to step it up!
The only time I didn't really eat bad this weekend was for Breakfast Fri, Sat, and Sun...and then Friday night we had Turkey Burgers from my Biggest Losers' book. They were excellent! Here is the recipe:

Mexican Turkey Burger

1 package of extra lean ground turkey

1/4 cup chopped cilantro (which I did not have or use)

1/4 cup diced red onion (I used onion flakes)

1/4 cup of red bell pepper

1/3 cup diced Fresh Mushrooms

1 tablespoon Mexican seasoning or fajita seasoning

1/4 cup low fat Mexican blend cheese (I used some fat free Cheddar)

1 teaspoon of Minced Garlic

Mix all of the above together -- make 6 4 oz patties

Grill burgers for 3 mins on each side or until there is not pink

Serve on :

whole grain buns or Arnold sandwich thins

Top with:

salsa

avocados peeled, pitted, and thinly sliced (did not use this i used tomato)

fat free Greek style yogurt

only 120 calories per burger...

They were good..even Ed and Briana thought so. The next Day Bri and I ate the burgers using regular condiments (mustard, mayo, ketchup, tomato) and they were still yummy! Enjoy!

Thank you Ms. Flo

FACT: Women gain anywhere between 5 and 10 lbs during their menstrual cycle.

So....I wasn't gonna weigh today well..because Flo came to visit..but then I decided what the heck! So...DRUM ROLL PLEASE....I didn't lose any weight but I didn't gain any weight ethier!! Which is great especially since Flo is here..because honestly That means I probably lost a little..weight...well...maybe! Well see!

Grave yard of my weight loss..

In keeping with my weight loss theme..I decided to add a few pictures of my weight loss from years past.. Enjoy! lol! I know what your thinking, "Sarah you are still fat in all of these pictures!" I know that I am but I am a heck of a lot smaller in all of these than I am right now..so...yeah...exactly...but I am on the journey!

THEY ARE LIARS!

So this weekend I was inspired while reading THE BIGGEST LOSER book "Six Weeks to a new you!" In This book all those big fatty fat fat's that weigh 300 and 400 pounds ~~ kept proclaiming..."I always thought I was to fat to run, but I found out that I am not, and that I actually like running!" WEll I am letting you know that "THEY ARE LIARS!"
Today in Paris while on my lunch break I deicided to go for my daily walk ~~ instead of just walking though since there wasn't anyone else on the track I decided to challenge my lovely 300 lb self into a walk/run for 3/4 of a mile...let me just say..."YUCK, YUCK, YUCK!" I guess I did it but it was not fun...and it hurt. SO I am officially stating that I am in FACT ~~ "TO FAT TO RUN!"
SO ANY of you fatty fat fat's like me that decide to run..let me say that it is possible to be to fat to run...and it is also not fun when you weigh so much....My 300 lbs...just kept hitting the pavement so hard...that people might have actually felt a small earth quake in Paris today. It hurts your body (knees and feet, especially if you ever broke a foot (not that I would ever have any experience in this ~~ "I think i'm gonna fall, I'm falling, Oh no I just fell," ~~))
SO inconclusion..I am just stating that I Feel that I am just to fat to run..but maybe I will try it again tommorow...lol!

- 3

Well, I am almost scared to announce it but after weighing in this morning...i have lost 3 lbs....I am a little nervous about being excited but Hopefully this is just the beginning of even more weight loss! I started to post a picture of my 3 lb weight loss but realized the only place you could see it was in my forehead...lol (faith)!
SO ----->This afternoon... I was hungry and I wanted a snack.... instead of eating some sun chips (which I totally convinced my self was ok..if I ate just one serving which is 1 oz....I opted for a much healthy snack ~~ ants on a log~~ (reduce fat peanut butter, celery and raisins.) It was tasty, crunchy and a little bit sweet and a little bit salty! Yum..yum..Good! Dang..if I was a good blogger I would have taken a picture! Next time..i will do better and take a picture of my healthy choices!

ALWAYS

So things are going pretty good..but they could ALWAYS be better! I have been eating good but I could ALWAYS do better! I have been excercising some but I could ALWAYS do better! I have been trying so hard to ALWAYS put God first but I could ALWAYS do better! BUT today when some sadness hit me..guess what?? I did not turn to food as I ..........ALWAYS..........have before! So Kudos for me!
I am going to weigh my self tommorow and as ALWAYS I am hoping that it goes well! lol! So will see ~~~ but we will have to wait and see!

LET"S try this again...again!

Look what I did last time I lost weight. I could fit in a small box. **Sigh**
P.S. Check out Catherine's purple wig..lol!


Remember like 3 days ago when I was really inspired to become BETTER! Let's see how that is going....


1. Put God first --check


2. Put marriage next --check


3. lose a whole bunch of weight in the process --no check


what happend?? Well...I was sabatoged and kidnapped and forced to eat a bunch of unhealthy foods...ok..so that's not true..i just haven't been doing it...I guess I could have eat worse..I have just not been taking the time to make smart choices...but...


I am gonna do better...starting right now at 2:24..lol I've said this before..but i really mean it! lol! No seriously...I----wait WE (because I gotta have God's help) ARE GONNA LOSE THIS WEIGHT for real..No surgery's NO pills and NO injections!


STay tuned!

This is IT!

I've decided after several days of soul searching that I am in need of a total life change!

1. Put God first

2. Marriage 2nd

3. Lose a whole bunch of weight in the process!

This isn't the first time I have come to this realization but I KNOW that it must be done! I am going to use this CRAZY Blog as a way to help me stay focused and maybe ~ hopefully ~ track my progress! So as of 4:01 today I am officially changing my lifestyle FOR REAL! From this moment...I will try my hardest to make consistent healthy decisions for my life! I know that even though I have failed about 1 million times before it is possible this time because of what the bible tells us in Phil 4:13. So here we go!