Blessings

Look at these Precious Faces! How Lucky am I! God has been so good to me! He has blessed me with the wonderful gift of getting to LOVE each one these children! My prayer for each of them is that God will continue to keep them all wrapped in his arms of love to keep them safe and always out of harms way! That he would continue to bless each of them in mind, body and spirit so that they will continue to make good choices and grow into beautiful Christian men and women! That they will always serve God and tell of his love! Preaching and teaching others about how Good God has been to them and then leading those people to Christ!

Our God is an Awesome God! Just look at these faces and see the wonderful works his hand has made!

I love each of you so much! I hope that know matter where you go and what you do you will always feel God's love! I also hope that you each know how important you are to me! I love you!

I can't help it!

I really can't help it...all I do it cry! If you know me very well at all I know what your thinking "oh big surprise, Sarah's crying!" I know I am over emotional but this is different! I have a serious problem ~ all I do is cry ~ I d0n't want to do anything or go anywhere...I don't want to work or even get out of bed...I'm constantly exhausted and sad...so seriously what's the diagnosis? Depression?...Maybe! Crazy?...Very possible! Helpless?...not really but sometimes I feel sorry for myself! Unloved?...NEVER! I mean even the mist of all this drama...I have a heavenly father that loves me unconditionally...even when I am depressed, crazy, and helpless! He is always there! Lovingly waiting for me to come to him with every worry, problem and tear! So why is that so hard?.....I don't know! I just want to understand why? I know all things are in his time and not mine...but its so hard to see at this very moment....why, when, and if it really will happen! So I've decided that once again I need to refocus my priorities and start over! Thank you for the blessings!

Mama Deanie ~ inspired by my dad!

So I miss my Mama Deanie! I miss her laugh, her smile, her warmness, her ability to always make me feel so special! I miss her wisdom and her love! I miss her often anyways but this time of year it's always worse! Because her birthday was last Wednesday Sept 29th and she would have been 89 and because 4 year ago on Oct 9th she left his earth! I feel that this year for some reason it's so much worse ~ Maybe because Briana just lost her grandad and so going through all of that with them has reminded me all over again of what we lost 4 years ago! Maybe it's because I aspire to be a mother so badly and she was such a WONDERFUL Mother to 10 kids of her own. Maybe it's because now I wish more than ever I could have asked her so many questions about "our family" or "how things were." Maybe I just want to hear her say one more time, "your cheeks sure are rosey" or "my hair used to be beautiful like yours" or "that baby sure is smart." Maybe I just long to hear one of her clever or crazy stories about our family! Maybe I am just sad because I no longer have grandparents. If she were alive she would be so tickled and thrilled about Ed! She would have loved him so much and I know that she would have found some way that we were related (she was always doing that with boys that I had a crush on.)
Mama Deanie was such a strong women ~ 10 kids, 26 grand kids, 30 great grand kids, 3 great, great grand kids! Wow how amazing to leave behind such a history and legacy! I by no means have intentions of having a family that large but how wonderful would it be to have that kind of impact on the world! I wander If she ever imagined that her and Papa Dick would have such a large family? ~ I wonder how that feels? See I would love to ask her that!