I can't believe it!!

So as I continue down this Journey of being on the losers bench its seems so crazy to believe that 6months  and 3 weeks ago I was 112lbs heavier!!  Such a blessing!!  As always "to God be the Glory!"  I give all the credit and Glory over to my heavenly father!  With out him I this whole journey would not be possible!!  I wouldn't have the energy to work out daily and make good food choices!  Its still a struggle sometimes to make the right choice about what my mouth and brain wants vs what my body needs!  Protein first my friends...thats how I roll now days!!!  I don't eat a lot of carbs and I try to stay way from bread, pasta, and most starchy items!!
I still have a lot of mental work to do!  The farther out from surgery the braver I get and so far nothing has really made me sick.  A few things have made me nauseous...but not really sick!  I did drink something to soon the other day after eating a small snack and I ended up puking everywhere!  To date (not including my horrible hospital yacking experience) ive thrown up 3 times since surgery.  First time..i ate 1/2 of a grill hamburger patty to fast, 2 time was a non chewable mulit vitamin that made me sick and then the other day I drink some crystal light pink lemonde about 10 minutes after eating a lil something something (im supposed to wait at least 30 mins before and after meals) anways...I paid for my poor choice!  This time it was very, very painful before it finally came it!  But afterwards I felt perfect just like the other times!
So the last thing I wanted to share was this pic!

size 18 pants...i honestly can never remember wearing size 18 pants!!  Amazing!!!  To God be the Glory!

6 months surgiversary!

Hey guys!!  Well..I did it ~~ finally made it to 6 months!  Seems so crazy that its already been 6 months..it has gone by so fast but at the same time..its been a crazy long uphill 6 months!! Does that make sense??  Anyways  6 months and 110 lbs down!!  Yes I said it 110 lbs down!!  I am so proud and so pleased!! I am so thankful to God for all his blessings and gifts and for the opportunity to be able to lose this weight so quickly!  Its not always been easy or fun but I can honestly say I would do it over again!  All of this weight loss is getting us so much closer to the ultimate goal of parenthood!!  Maybe this time next year we will have a bundle or be waiting on a bundle of joy!!
Everyone has been so gracious and so kind with the sweet words and compliments!  I have never had low self esteem but ive also always been terrible at receiving compliments and its really awkard to be getting so many!  Several have asked "how much more weight are you going to lose?"  This question really cracks me up because even though I've lost 110lbs I am still considered obese ~ plus size~ fluffy~pleasantly plump or whatever you want to call it!  So it seems so insane to me that people would ask me this question but after I pondered on it for a while I realized that people are asking me this because no one has ever..i mean never ever seen me be small!  I've always been overweight ~ chuncky~ full figured~ etc..  for example hello... I weighed 240 in the 8th grade!! :)  So the smaller I get the weirder it is probably going to become for me and for others!!!!  Ive never been a normal or average size!   So Slowly im getting used to my new life style of looking and feeling better than I have in years!!  I just hope that I don't start looking older and that I don't get that star jones big head syndrome..thats a real fear of mine!!

Anyways ~~  To God be the glory friends!!  To God be the glory!!

260's

When I weighed in this morning...i saw..with my big brown eyes...a big 269.6 on the scale!!!  I can't tell you how happy and excited that makes me!! That means I ve lost a total of 88lbs!!  269.6..do you realive that means that I am only 70lbs away from ONEderland??  How crazy!!  I realize that 70 is a lot of weight but when I think about were I started ....and that ive already lost 88lbs..70 seems much more obtainable!!!  I feel so blessed to be given this opportunity to have had this surgery!  It has not been easy...working my butt off and always being mindful to make good choices even when I really don't want to...but thus far in the game its been worth it!!  I pray that God will continue to allow me to fight back temptations and help me make good choices!  Thanks for all the love and support!! 

Food addiction!

A few weeks ago I had a discussion with my BFF and I asked.."So do you think that I had a food addiction?"  She said.."yes!"  I have to admit I was totally shocked!  I mean I know that I have been super morbidly obese my entire life but honestly never thought I had an addiction!  She went on to explain that I was always looking for a reason to celebrate with food...and that I was always trying to reward her kids or take her kids out for treats...now keep in mind..when she told me this I was still in shock...me??  Food addiction??  Never!!  Fast foward to this week ~~~  I realized..as I reached for the cheetos that I had bought for the kids and left in my pantry that maybe Bri was right!  Im finding it increasingly harder to want to make good choices now that I am 19 weeks post op and 85 lbs down!  Yes I said -85lbs!!!!  I have been still been doing pretty good and I don't know if its just because Im comfortable or what..but I find myself craving crazy junk food!  A few times I have even had PIZZA..yes I said Pizza..now in my defense I was only able to eat 1/2 to 1 whole piece vs. 4 or 5 piecs at a time like I used to eat but still..i can't believe I let me self eat pizza!!   Sadly cake and ice cream chewed up well..will go down just as smoothly as grilled chicken --which is scary if you don't watch it!  I had read and watched several Video blogs were people have talked about not having any cravings...or hunger pangs...or they would say.."I don't even want the bad stuff anymore!"  I don't know what super powers their surgeon used..But I seriously came out of surgery hungry!! lol!!  I still have cravings..I still want to eat...i get hungry and as hard as it is to admit..i guess I still have that same 'ol "food addiction!" :(!
So admitting it is the first step right??  So I admit it..I Sarah Harrison Robison admit that I have a food addiction!  whew...that felt good...news is out...so now I just have to move forward!
I knew from the beginning that surgery was not a quick fix...i knew that I would still have  to make the right food choices and work out!!  Which is one of one of the reasons I decided on the VSG surgery because I knew that I would have to be responsible and accountable and work hard to lose weight!  I knew it wasn't going to be easy but I knew I needed the change!
 so Yeah  I'm 85 lbs down..Im so proud and I feel so good about it and I know that food and losing weight will always be a struggle for me!  So what's my problem...i think Im just sad...I think I may finally be starting to mourn food!  How sad is that!  I actually got really angry last week watching my friend eat a bag of chips in front of me...i mean I even kicked and stomped my feet...now that is classy!!  Then the week before that when I had a really bad day...I came home and immediately wanted to eat something bad...then I started getting upset and almost crying when I realized that I could not do that again really classy!!
So bottom line...please don't look at weight loss surgeries as easy fix..its an awesome and helpful tool..but it can't fix the problem in my head!!  Praying for peace, guidance and for God to continue helping me make smart choices!!  As always...to God be the glory!!

sorry its been so long!!

I know it's been forever since I posted last but things have been crazy busy!!  CRAZY BUSY!!  Lots of birthdays, working late hours, VBS, Lots of company, doctor's visits, Excercise (yes..i am still working out) --go me..and then tryin to find time for my sweet hubby and then somewhere in there...rolling in some sleep!!!  I am that person that gets annoyed with bloggers when they don't post often enough for my liking and then look at me...i guess its just safe to say that we are all busy and our main prorites do not include this our blogs :)! 

So first things first..updates...currently as of this morning I am down...drum roll please... -72 lbs!!  Crazy..i know right..72lbs in ..hold on..i gotta do the math..in 15 weeks...how crazy is that!!  Last night at this Cardio strengthening class I take..this older lady..stopped me and asked how much weight I had lost..when I told her 70lbs..she about fell out..it was really funny..seeing the expression on her face!  She said, she knew I had lost some weight but had no idea it was that much :)!!  How funny...I don't mind being the center of attention..but it is weird and sometimes awkard to recieve so many compliments..im not saying..to stop giving them :)  im just saying its kinda weird..I mean what should my response be..."I know right!!"  I think I may try saying that..i bet I get some ugly looks after that!  Or maybe I will start saying..."its all from God" or "its a blessing from God!"  Yeah..that's sounds better than "I know right!"  Here is a picture from this morning:

Here's a pic from last Wed:

p.s. thats a new dress that ive been wearing a lot because it fits!!

I had an awesome mom from work who has lost a bunch of weight and so she gave me a bunch of clothes!!  She has been a lifesaver!!  Without all her clothes..i honestly don't know what i would be wearing!  I don't want to spend a lot of money..because I tend to be going through sizes so quickly!  I started out this journey at a 26/28...more towards the 28!  I am in a 22/24 now!  Some of my 24 pants are starting to get baggy..I mean its crazy how all of this is happening in just 15 short week!!  I am very happy and pleased with all the progress that God has allowed me to make thus far in the journey!!  So in AWE of his GREATNESS and I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel which for me is becoming a mommy!!  I know we still have a lot more weight to lose but my ultimate goal of being a MOM feels so much closer now!!  I just can't till the day that I get to hold my sweet bundle of joy in my arms and remind my self that all of this hard work..has been totally worth it!! 

The last couple of years struggle with fertility problems..I often went to the book of Samuel to read about and study the story of Hannah!  I feel like most who have had these struggles probably know this story well..because it serves as a source of comfort to be reminded that God is hearing our cry and plea for children and will one day answer that request!  So I leave you with a great verse from that story!! 

 A cry from Hannah:

 "And she made a vow, saying, "Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head." 1 Samuel 1:11

So many times..i prayed this prayer...well except for the razor on the head part!!!  lol!! 

To God be the Glory!!!







12 weeks on the losers bench!

Well...here I am 12 weeks exactly from the day I had surgery and I am -64 lbs!!  Seems so strange that I am saying that but it's true!!  I can finally start to see a difference and I feel better and exercise has become so much easier!  Today while waiting for a friend...she told me that when she pulled up she thought it was my car but didn't think it was me because..get this "my face was so skinny" lol!!  I think she was serious.. either way it totally made my day and cracked me up!  All the clothes that were just "fitting better" are finally getting "too big" and I am faced with the decision to either buy some new cheap clothes or have someone try and alter my old ones : /!  Honestly I may do a little a both!  I just know I don't want to be out a lot of money on clothes that may not fit for very long!

So this picture is from a few days ago ~~~ please ignore the big..white Bra...that is so classy!!
So my next goal is lose 100 lbs which may take forever but it seems so much more attainable with it only being 37 lbs away!!  Yes..I said that with a smile on my face!!  
What am I eating these days? ...well my friends..lots..lots and lots of protein!  I eat a lot of fish, chicken, eggs and cottage cheese!  Still only eating a few ounces at a time but overall I usually feel very satisfied!  Im eating about 3 to 6 small meals a day!  Every day is different depending on how hungry I get and how well I packed for myself for the day!  Having a traveling work job is not super duper ideal for WLS patients!  But we make do!  :)
What am I doing to workout?...well my friends...usually about 30 to 40 minutes on the elliptical or treadmill.  I have also been taking a Aerobics type class at sidelines and if I haven't exercised and don't want to get back out..i usually do an exercise video like the biggest loser or walk away the pounds or ride the stationery  bike (yes I know you are jealous we have a stationery bike)!  I have also been using some weights at sidelines and at home...still super worried about my saggy saggy skin!  
What am I drinking?....Water..Water..Water...Water...Also I like to use Crystal light flavors...currently peach tea is my fav!  I have also been drinking tea...which is strange because I don't drink tea!  


Guess what...my hubby is doing great too and he has lost about 15lbs!  I am super proud of him and he hasn't drank a soft drink since the day that I had surgery!  He is the best and has been very supportive and complimentary!  
ok...I know that some reading this blog may have questions...I started keeping this to be helpful to others and a way to keep up with my progress!  So if you have questions that you don't want to ask on the blog..please feel free to message me on facebook at  

	sarah.h.robison@facebook.com

 Love to help in any way!  


Praising God daily for his blessings!!!!

Bam!! First goal met!!

My very first goal was to be under 300... And this morning when I weighed it was 299!! This is such a special accomplishment!! So now I've lost a total of - 58lbs!! I guess my next goal is to loss 100lbs!! I only have 42lbs to go..that actually sounds attainable!! Thanking God for his goodness!!