I can't help it!

I really can't help it...all I do it cry! If you know me very well at all I know what your thinking "oh big surprise, Sarah's crying!" I know I am over emotional but this is different! I have a serious problem ~ all I do is cry ~ I d0n't want to do anything or go anywhere...I don't want to work or even get out of bed...I'm constantly exhausted and sad...so seriously what's the diagnosis? Depression?...Maybe! Crazy?...Very possible! Helpless?...not really but sometimes I feel sorry for myself! Unloved?...NEVER! I mean even the mist of all this drama...I have a heavenly father that loves me unconditionally...even when I am depressed, crazy, and helpless! He is always there! Lovingly waiting for me to come to him with every worry, problem and tear! So why is that so hard?.....I don't know! I just want to understand why? I know all things are in his time and not mine...but its so hard to see at this very moment....why, when, and if it really will happen! So I've decided that once again I need to refocus my priorities and start over! Thank you for the blessings!