So I miss my Mama Deanie! I miss her laugh, her smile, her warmness, her ability to always make me feel so special! I miss her wisdom and her love! I miss her often anyways but this time of year it's always worse! Because her birthday was last Wednesday Sept 29th and she would have been 89 and because 4 year ago on Oct 9th she left his earth! I feel that this year for some reason it's so much worse ~ Maybe because Briana just lost her grandad and so going through all of that with them has reminded me all over again of what we lost 4 years ago! Maybe it's because I aspire to be a mother so badly and she was such a WONDERFUL Mother to 10 kids of her own. Maybe it's because now I wish more than ever I could have asked her so many questions about "our family" or "how things were." Maybe I just want to hear her say one more time, "your cheeks sure are rosey" or "my hair used to be beautiful like yours" or "that baby sure is smart." Maybe I just long to hear one of her clever or crazy stories about our family! Maybe I am just sad because I no longer have grandparents. If she were alive she would be so tickled and thrilled about Ed! She would have loved him so much and I know that she would have found some way that we were related (she was always doing that with boys that I had a crush on.)
Mama Deanie was such a strong women ~ 10 kids, 26 grand kids, 30 great grand kids, 3 great, great grand kids! Wow how amazing to leave behind such a history and legacy! I by no means have intentions of having a family that large but how wonderful would it be to have that kind of impact on the world! I wander If she ever imagined that her and Papa Dick would have such a large family? ~ I wonder how that feels? See I would love to ask her that!
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