W A I T I N G (say in slow motion..it's much better)

So Waiting that's what I'm doing now!! I have finished up my 6 months of medically supervised weight loss on Monday Feb 13!! I've done the sleep study, had extra labs drawn, met with the nutritionist and the psychologist..and sent all of this information over to Vanderbilt!! So now I just wait! Friday one of the insurance Experts (expert sounds so much better than "lady") called me to let me know she was faxing all of my information over to blue cross for "predetermination!" I've done everything they have asked of me so They should approve me for weight loss surgery but you never know what Insurance company's are gonna do!! IF I get approved then it will be up to me to make the final decision to go through with this process or not! I'm so nervous some days..i think of course I'm gonna do it..and then others..I'm like forget that..i can do this on my own and then I'm reminded again..just like this past 6 months..Ive been trying so hard to actually lose weight and all I did was fluctuate between 6lbs!! 6lbs in 6 months (with me really trying) is not acceptable! This surgery is a big, life changing deal...im just not sure that im mentally, physically, and emotionally ready to go through with it!! I'm praying though..i'm praying!! So maybe the title of this post should have been WAITING & PRAYING..because that's way more accurate! Im trusting in God's love and Grace that something will work out!