Two months from today..is the big day! Today is the first time i've honestly felt any anxiety since I made the final decision!! I think im mostly scared of the pain...and not knowing exactly what to expect. Ive been watching blog videos from those who have done this before me and they really help to give me a better grasp of it all! Its really awesome to have brave souls that made these videos because they have been so good and helpful!
I don't think I am going to make videos because they seem so time consuming! Speaking of time consuming that another fear of mine...I know i've got a long way to go especially after April 26th but I sure don't want this to be ALL CONSUMING of my life....i feel like for so many people it is! I know there are some things that Im going to have to slow down, do better and plan and think about..but I don't want it to be ALL I think about! I mean right now it's heavy on my mind..but thats the anxiety! Im still praying for peace, health and the hosptial, surgeon, nurses, my family..and all the days to come! I would appreciate your prays too!!
oh yeah..i thought of another pro...Button up shirts!! I have a few..but they don't button! I had to quit wearing those years ago (with the intention to button)...so that will be an awesome non-scare victory!!
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